SNH

Illuminating Lights : You're Away

2010-09-06T06:07:00.000+08:00

Have I not gone through a day without missing you?
Whom a part of my heart belongs to,
Where my affection resides by,
Whose smile is the apple of my eye,
Who has my love more than I could ever define,
Above everything I ever had in my mind.

So you said I wanted to forget,
That we painted them towns purple and red,
All the fine times we ever had,
All the moments I made you feel bad,
All the lies I told so you won't be sad,
All the silly jokes we cracked,
And my lame ones you couldn't even laugh at,
That I'm the only one who could swing your mood like mad.

Have I not gone through a day without missing you?
I'd be lying to myself if I said it wasn't true.

zeidalqadri
290810
1021hrs
Driver's seat, MAN5475, KL-Melaka

Silent Night Hymn #17 - A Toast

2010-05-27T00:14:00.001+08:00

here's to the chase,
the fix and the pace,
the tale that we missed,
the route that we braced,
the kiss on the hand,
the time that we spent,
the dream that we frisked,
the straw that we bent,
the path that we ran,
the wind and the sand,
the talk and the plan,
the song that we sang.

here's to the chase,
the pulse and the craze,
the eminence of your grace.

zeidalqadri
270510
0009 hrs

Silent Night Hymn #16 - The Sky & The Sun

2009-11-30T00:23:00.001+08:00

i'm not easy no more,
i'm not as fun,
so what's up my man?
the sky and the sun.

i'm far from over,
i'm no where near,
i'm biting things hard,
most of them are bitter.

so i'm passing through,
and you don't see me,
here's something you didn't know,
i saved you the front row.

i'll continue walking,
see the birds chirping,
i already lost my hearing,
your silence was deafening.

please don't apologize,
i barely take things to heart,
it was already missing,
nothing much for you to cut.

please don't start weeping,
i'll stay at the sideline,
paying attention and waiting,
for you to do nothing.

zeidalqadri
301109
0010 hrs

Silent Night Hymn #15 - Silly Compass

2009-11-30T00:19:00.001+08:00

this hymn,
you see,
it just won't stop,
no matter when
you're far up north,
and i'm down south.

this silence,
baby,
is not for nothing,
it feels like gambling,
can't be anymore exciting,
than to just see
what the tide might bring.

perhaps room is what you need,
at least that's how i read it.
or call me stupid,
for tardily pursuing my bid.

i do admit,
it feels like i'm losing grip,
which i never had,
though i don't feel so bad,
for such an exquisite scenery,
it's always worthy
to be silly.

zeidalqadri
2309
051009
home

Silent Night Hymn #14 - The Lure

2009-09-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

I am sent adrift,
and everyday is just another shift,
when all I need is a chant,
to send me ashore again.

I went astray,
still with hope on my tray,
though I can no longer listen
to what you have to say,
when you are too distant.

come on over,
take my hand,
pick the clover,
wipe off the sand,
stay right there,
comprehend when,
it's easier to catch a fever,
than to grab you for a dinner.

or perhaps just a supper,
I'd still get to
spend minutes together,
send you home later,
we could maybe
take a detour,
get amused at the theater,
they're for you to consider,
my dear.

zeidalqadri
140409
2230

Silent Night Hymn #13 - Voices on Valentine's

2009-02-15T18:15:00.001+08:00

I heard voices telling,
I should give you something,
For all I know,
you deserve to have everything,
So what do I do
when I can hand you nothing?

For what it's worth,
I'd resort to stealing,
But what is worse,
I don't do this V thing,
Had a bad history about it,
and bad histories tend to keep repeating.

So take this words as a sign,
That you don't need a special day
to be in someone's mind,
Let alone when you're mine.

Now, would you mind?

zeidalqadri
140209
0340 hrs

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Now playing: Coldplay - Death And All His Friends
via FoxyTunes

Silent Night Hymn #12 - Purple

2009-02-15T18:13:00.001+08:00

how can i ever tell
how much i've been missing you
you put me under your spell
haven't been able to see things through

things happened in a snap
never saw it coming
thought i could see the ending
tried to do so with a clap

although i would be lying
to say i wanna shake off this feeling
because when you opt to be silent
i wear purple to feel your presence

so i'm telling that i'm missing you
that things can't be any truer than true
and i'll forever be in blue
waiting for those eyes to shed a clue

zeidalqadri
140109
0000 hrs

Silent Night Hymn #11 - Silence

2009-02-15T18:10:00.001+08:00

now listen.
can't you hear
the deafening silence?

it's awkward.
it's not even unclear
this is weird.

*
whisper to me how
to ease my pain.
show it to me now
i wanna be sane.
again.

we're celebrating.
we're jumping around
but something's missing.

i pondered a while.
i'm longing for
that blissfully burning smile.

zeidalqadri
010109
2205

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Now playing: Travis - Somewhere Else
via FoxyTunes

SIlent Night Hymn #10 - Echoes

2008-11-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

she's getting further,
she's moving further,
off beyond my reach,
i used to smell flowers.

i'm going deeper,
i'm pushed deeper,
and i'm barely hearing,
the questions to my answers.

there're plenty to be told,
not much are bold,
Her Highness couldn't care enough,
none could be sold.

it's falling apart,
it's rumbling hard,
the hope of the states,
on a house of cards.

zeidalqadri
011108
0131 hrs

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Now playing: Queens Of The Stone Age - River In The Road
via FoxyTunes

Silent Night Hymn #9 - 9

2008-11-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

how can i take you off my mind,
when you turned me into a blind,
when suffocation turns out to be something so fine,
when every path looks like a straight line.

how can i take you off my mind,
when you turned me upside-down in every kind,
when an honest smile on my face
is not a luxury hard enough to find,
when i'm in haven sans any wine.

how can i take you off my mind,
when the only number i can think of is nine.

zeidalqadri
281008
0202 hrs

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Now playing: Beirut - Nantes
via FoxyTunes

Silent Night Hymn #6 - High

2008-10-17T06:27:00.001+08:00

I was strolling in the sky,
And I wonder
How she could fly me this high,
To the place where,
Nothing of anything i fared,
Is anywhere near the bar,
I know,
Had them all by far.

So I sit and sip the coffee,
I know it's a journey,
And nothing comes for free,
But this fear of not knowing,
What the future is going to bring,
Is inviting a greater suffering,
For if it's going to rain,
I don't know if I can contain,
The state of being in such pain.

I made my stand,
Don't know how it's going to end,
The hope's for the best,
We'll celebrate and have a fest,
Too bad if it's not going to go through,
Life is never easy,
Proven to be terribly cruel.

I've never been at this altitude,
And I know for a fact,
Those eyes are worth a fight,
And no one's going to make it feel this good.

zeidalqadri
121008
2308 hrs

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Now playing: Burial - Archangel
via FoxyTunes

Silent Night Hymn #8 - Another Leaf On The Tree

2008-10-10T00:31:00.002+08:00

O how silly it could be,
when you're just another leaf on the tree,
as green as others,
nothing about you matters.

O how dull does it sound,
when you're just another jewel on the crown,
as glittering as the rest,
nothing makes you the best.

O how suffocating is the beat,
when you're just another man on the street.

zeidalqadri
0030 hrs
101008

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Now playing: British Sea Power - Fear Of Drowning
via FoxyTunes

Silent Night Hymn #7 - The Pursuit

2008-10-08T01:01:00.002+08:00

so what do i do now?

should i just sit tight and chill,
without knowing how it's gonna make me feel,
or if it's gonna get me killed,
because my mind's a machine in a mill,
asking myself whether it's real,
this thing i used to call a sure-deal.

the silent night hymn shouldn't make one suffer,
although it could be taking a bit longer,
before i can be pretty sure,
that the sky's totally clear,
for the fireworks to light up the atmosphere.

let this pursuit takes its toll,
to those around me, to my body, to my soul,
nothing's too dear for you, my gold,
you gotta beat me harder for me to fold.

if this is an obsession,
i'd rather regard it a passion,
and i don't run away from a mission.

so what do i do now?
i gotta get to you somehow.

zeidalqadri
2211 hrs
061008

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Now playing: Coldplay - Don't Panic
via FoxyTunes

Silent Night Hymn #5 - The Interlude

2008-09-27T14:54:00.004+08:00

so it's time to say goodbye,
to tell i'm fine with it would be a lie,
but this should not be the end of everything,
and for that i shall not cry,
it could be the start of something,
something i have to reach for,
even if i have to fly.

i really wish i'll get to see you more soon,
'cause i'm gonna miss the feeling,
when you flew me to the moon,
forgive me for being late at times,
and the things i did wrong,
i can't wait to ride with you again,
and we'll together sing another song.

zeidalqadri
0137 hrs
270908

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Now playing: Beirut - Elephant Gun
via FoxyTunes

Silent Night Hymn #4 - Infinity

2008-09-26T01:44:00.004+08:00

for the most exciting fortnight i ever had,
and how mind-boggling your acts seemed to be,
and how your gaze stopped my heart,
so hold my hand, rest on my shoulder, baby,
they have been yours since i first saw you, lady.

for how frustrating your rejections have been,
although i believe you just couldn't make it,
and how your voice were so mean,
it sounded so sweet,
i didn't mind if these ears bleed.

for how pulsating life seemed to become,
when i found how fine you are,
and how time stopped every time you hummed,
to the songs we listened together in the car,
i can still hear them even when you're far.

for how hard it's going to be when you are away,
and how it's going to make me live in fear,
for not saying the things i should've said,
it won't stop here,
it shouldn't stop here.

for how i tried to make up for lost times,
and for how regretful i am,
who was so naive not to notice,
the dream i should've grabbed in my fist,
far, far earlier than this.

life is too short for me to wonder,
how our commonalities will make me suffer,
so come to me darling, show me your signs,
should i take your hands and not acting like a blind,
and be the happiest chap knowing that you're mine.

it won't stop here, it shouldn't stop here,
'cause to me the end is far from near,
so i'm sending this out for you to hear,
and i'm gonna make it loud and clear,
just how bad it feels when i miss you, dear.

zeidalqadri
0203 hrs
260908

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Now playing: Datarock - Princess
via FoxyTunes

Silent Night Hymn #3 - The Light

2008-09-24T03:14:00.006+08:00

good night now my soothing light,
tomorrow is going to be another sight,
grace me in my dreams, my dearest darling,
think of me when you are shivering,
from the stinging cold and your slightest fright,
i will be coming, comforting with my mightiest might.

grace me in my dreams, my shining sun,
for without you in one, i would rather have none.

zeidalqadri
0235 hrs
240908

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Now playing: The Cardigans - Lead Me Into The Night
via FoxyTunes

Silent Night Hymn #2 - Rejection

2008-09-23T00:05:00.004+08:00

so this is how it really feels,
to be head over heels,
to know that sooner or later,
i'll be down on my knees,
before the rejections become anything,
but the plague that actually kills.

it is only no. 5 though,
there are still a pile of reels to show.

zeidalqadri
0024 hrs
230908

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Now playing: Arcade Fire - Crown of Love
via FoxyTunes

Silent Night Hymn #1 - Determination

2008-09-21T20:37:00.011+08:00

because i see you everywhere i go,
in my sleep, in my meal, over at the next block,
if you're not Her, i can't think of anything more,
ignore me, grace me,
hit me like i'm your biggest foe,
make me your laughing stock,
feel free if i'm the one you'd want to mock,
i'd do anything you wished for,
i'd be anything you wanted me to be,
your brightest star, your blazing sun,
for you dear,
Her Royal Highness Queen of My Dock.

zeidalqadri
2327 hrs
210908

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Now playing: Coldplay - Hunting High And Low
via FoxyTunes